Moms & Daughters

What is with moms & daughters?

Do all moms have this super possessive hold on their daughters?

Does being the mom of a young woman render you incapable of practical thought?

I dont understand you mom. I love u but I really don't understand you.

I'm engaged to him; we've made a commitment to each other...why would anything happen abhi? Why would I mess this up? Why would he? Yes I've tossed your idea of a typical arranged marriage but didn't you already know that about me? With my dreams and head in the air, how could I have ever settled for the staid & practical arranged marriage? I always wanted the spark, the chemistry & the magic. You knew that. And I got it. So why is this so terrifying to you mom? Why?

I wish you would realize that I'm happy and that it's okay for you to let go. I can hold on to life on my own now. And having him in my life does not diminish my love for you in any way. You'll always be my mom right? No one is taking that away from you. In fact you have someone else to call you mom!!!

Trust me for once, let me go and be happy for me....because I love him & I love you and I hate feeling torn between both of u!

Day 2: Samosas & Sprout Chaat

How to be a Good Wife - the Cooking Lessons!

And the lessons to become a good wife begin! The first of many more to come in the next month, is cooking!! Since bumblebee is a big foodie; mom is after my life to learn some new stuff everyday!

Day 1 was Spinach Bruschetta & Fried Rice :)) - and it tasted quite yum! :))

Bye Bye Singapore

I'm actually leaving...
A place that's been home for more than 7 years...
A place that's seen me grow up from a naive 18 year old to this young woman I am today...
A place that showed me the the highest of highs & the lowest of lows...
Where I cried, laughed, made mistakes and learnt life...
Friends made, friendships broken, memories in every corner...
Drunken nights a-plenty & conversations about the most random things!
Clubbing till the morning, lunches in raffles, cycling at ECP, walks with various friends, shopping in orchard, drinks at so many pubs!
Thousands of images, all blurring into one another...

The place where I discovered who I was;
Where I slowly came to realize what I wanted in life...
Where I met you; and started writing the new chapter of my life!
Yes this place is special! Very special.
Not only did Singapore make me who I am today; but it brought me to you :)
And for that I will be forever grateful!

I am going to miss this place...
More than I thought I would!

Bye Bye Singapore!
Au Revoir! :))

Crossroads

Do memories disappear when you throw the things associated with them? Do the feelings associated with the things you once cherished get forgotten now that you've got the courage to throw the things away? Memories fade; leaving a blur of emotions, ups & downs and just life!

And yet again I find myself at a crossroad in life. This one I chose for myself; this crossroad I know exactly where im going; where im supposed to be. Whether that road is gonna be simpler; less strifed with thorns; nicer to me - I have no clue. I guess that's the point of life - to keep you wondering of what's yet to come. To keep you guessing what turn is life going to take next.

While I celebrate the tomorrow & the road im going to embark on; I can't help but look back. Wistful of the youth I'm leaving behind. The mistakes made; the lessons learnt; the people I loved & the people I hated. All lie in that path. Forgotten, forgiven, swept away with the sands of time...

Weeks, Days, Hours, Minutes...

...I countdown every moment
Har pal jo tumse door rehti hoon
Its as long as a millenium
I count down the days
To the moment that I'm in your arms again!

Mornings I look forward to now
Knowing it always brings a msg from you,
"Good morning sweetheart"
Is there any doubt, that a morning
that begins with your love would be anything but?

My afternoon rushes past;
in countless messages & random conversations
My evenings seem longer
As I wait for the sun to rise in
Your part of the World!

The days that should be short with
the amount of work I have
Are only lengthened by the number of
Hours I spend not talking to you

I miss you jaan...

To Us!

You just know when u meet the right person; that he's the one for you.

When people used to say that to me, it would just piss me off. I would know; seriously?! Like would there be a bell that rang or a song that played or a whisper from God saying he's the one?! I just never could get it. And each time I liked someone, I waited for a sign from the universe; telling me that this was meant to be. Don't get me wrong, its not that I don't believe in destiny; let's just say that at times I didn't have very much faith in mine. And even tho I wasn't always waiting for the right person to walk past, I forever thought it would be nice to have someone sweep me off my feet na?

Today, I'm with someone and u know what; all those bloody idiots were right - sometimes u do just know! And no it wasn't a bell or a song or even a whisper. In fact it wasn't even in the first meeting. We met in an ordinary circumstance on a normal day. Between parents & other family. We had been talking for some time and I thought I was fairly comfortable with him. The first meeting was good but awkward. I was trying not to say much (courtesy loads of advice from family to not be super chatty as guys apparently don't like such girls! *eyes rolling*) and he was just trying to figure me out! The first thing that struck me about what he said, was that he was looking for a partner in his life. And he couldn't find that person in a week. (sthin that's fairly atypical of most guys in the arranged marriage scenario) We spoke some more & even if he had no clue what he wanted by then; I knew I liked him. :) I had no clue whether it would even go anywhere further...and for once I didn't think beyond.

We met a few more times after and talked for a few more weeks. About everything & anything. I didn't even realize I was falling for him until that moment in a crowded club that I looked up into his eyes and then, I actually just knew. I knew that I wanted to be with this person who made me laugh; who made me comfortable enough to be myself around him; who teased me mercilessly about everything & anything; who listened; who loved life & had a passion for living; who was fun & easy to be with; who made my life that much brighter every day. I really just knew.

Whether it's the jolt of love at first sight; a sudden realization of a best friend that u actually love or like us; the slow creeping of love between two people; I can honestly say, that sometimes u just know when the person is right for you. :)

This is to u my sweetheart; and the many years of togetherness we have signed up for. :) *hugz*