Back Yet Again!

And I'm back to blogging! After a 2 year gap this time. What is it about blogging, writing that keeps pulling me back again & again? Well, whatever it is, I am happy to be back! And with so many changes to boot!

First & foremost is the addition of the biggest relationship title of my life ever, Mother! Yes I am now the proud mother of the delightfully loud & gorgeous little girl! Joining Sunshine & Bumblebee, the newest feature of this blog is my darling little one!

Wow has life changed. Questions of life & marriage & partnership now meander to questions of parenting, philosophy, the kind of child I want to raise and the right amount of push I want to give for her to achieve milestones organically! Isn't it funny how we live in a generation where we are already talking about milestones for a mere 8 month old. And yet thats the society we live in today. Comparisons run galore right from birth!
The challenge & mission in all of this is to respect the child as a whole human being, as someone who is capable of learning, understanding and emoting the full range of life that we as adults do.

To my sweet little one, I dedicate myself to, learning, growing, evolving as only mothers can do. Each time she places her tiny little hand on my bosom as we nurse, she unlocks another piece of my heart, warms yet another wall and fills me up with serenity the likes of which i always chased and never could manage to experience wholly.

I love you Sweetheart, Unconditionally, Irrevocably, Undeniably, Forever. :)

Pre-Wedding Jitters!!

A week from today I will be at the eve of my wedding. My wedding. Wow. It seems so unreal. I think of Bumblebee & there is no doubt in my mind that he is the person I want to tie myself to for the rest of my life. I think of everything else & my step falters. Leaving home, being part of a new home, new rules, new expectations, a new country & def a new life. All this is scary. Part of me is excited & wants to stop worrying & over thinking! Part of me is terrified that I'm not thinking enough. That I should know how to be, how to act, what to say by now.

There should be classes on this. How to leave your own house & enter another's & make that your own. Really, I'm sure lessons on this would have helped me far more than stupid history & geography!

*sigh* God, give me strength. And hold my hand please? I need you right now...

Weeks, Days, Hours, Minutes...

...I countdown every moment
Har pal jo tumse door rehti hoon
Its as long as a millenium
I count down the days
To the moment that I'm in your arms again!

Mornings I look forward to now
Knowing it always brings a msg from you,
"Good morning sweetheart"
Is there any doubt, that a morning
that begins with your love would be anything but?

My afternoon rushes past;
in countless messages & random conversations
My evenings seem longer
As I wait for the sun to rise in
Your part of the World!

The days that should be short with
the amount of work I have
Are only lengthened by the number of
Hours I spend not talking to you

I miss you jaan...