Randomness!

Its 1am and I'm so not sleepy! Being absolutely jobless has its downside and boredom is one of them! I've spent enough time stalking random people on fb; for once im actually updated on all the emails I have to write to various people and Bumblebee has a suuper busy workday!

I was going through some old docs on my emails & found this unfinished story. I generally suck at writing fiction; the whole balance between narration & active dialogues is something I never got the hang of completely...but i actually like this one...perhaps I should actually finish it! Now if I could only remember what direction the story was supposed to take!

The Jump - August 2008

"Matt, catch me okay? Promise me you'll catch me..." She giggled as she ran towards the tanker.

She was walking through swirls of fog, the cold mist clinging to her skin and clothes. She held out her hand and realized that she couldnt even see past in. It was almost like being in a steam room, albeit a cold one. Dark moonless nights like these were when the heroine in the book was always attacked.

"Oh snap out of it Sandy...there is nothing sinister about this place...in fact its almost magical!" She muttered under her breath.

Carefully stepping out of her shoes she started to climb the creaking ladder which would take her atop the tanker. She could hear Matt, Dave and his new girl-friend in the background. Their voices were being carried by the fog around her and though she couldnt see them, she was suddenly glad for their voices.

"Come on Sandy...I'm freezing my ass here...will you do it already!" she heard Dave complain.

Typical she thought. "Hold on will you - these steps are slipperly!"

Gingerly she climbed the steps and reached her destination. The top of the tanker. She stood up there, the swirls of fog beneath her, the twinkling city lights like a golden carpet beckoning her and she felt bliss. Pure untarnished bliss. She prepared to jump, poising herself on the very edge of the tanker.

"Matt, you're down there right? I'm jumping!!"

"Babe i'm here for you. I'm waiting." That was all the encouragement Sandy needed.

She jumped.

Me, You & Wifi*...

...the modern love story!

So apparently what is absolutely essential to complete a love story in this generation is wifi! Lol! Technology has been super frustrating since I got to jkt. Given the clear reception that Sg phone services have; I'm superbly frustrated by the crappy reception in Indo. And for some reason this reception is only crappy with US! Talk about annoyingggg!!! We circumvented the phone line & realized that skype was working far better in terms of quality of conversation! And then what happens? My wifi starts acting up! Since last weekend, my wifi has been all wonky! Randomly connecting & disconnecting as it deems fit! I swear I miss the technology of a developed country! How am I supposed to have rambling conversations now? *sigh*

*courtesy Bumblebee :))

Day 7: Kathi Roll & Chocolate Sponge Cake

Today was an interesting combination of healthy vs non-healthy food! Kathi Roll is one of Bumblebee's favourite dishes so learning that was kind of mandatory! :D

Baking - i absolutely love doing! I used to love watching mom bake as a kid. And in my opinion, the best part of baking a cake - is eating raw batter!! There is seriously nothing better than that! :D

I really want to learn a few more baking items - at some point, brownies & chocolate chip cookies as well! :)) Brownies reminds me of that scene from "Life as We Know It" where Katherine Heigl & Josh Duhamel (who btw is ultra ultra cute!) make magic brownies! Now that's one thing i would not mind trying at some point! :P

Anyways, pics from today!

Retail Therapy!!!

Today I took the day off from cooking! And went out shopping with mom & her friend! And did my favourite kind of shooping - heels! I was in girl-heaven! :D

My loot - 3 super cute & very useful heels! I loooove shopping! :))

Day 6: Pav Bhaji & Kesar Sandesh

And today I made my favourite foods! Pav Bhaji & Kesar Sandesh! Sandesh is a Bengali sweetdish which is super awesome! Its one of my mom's top-secret dishes! She generally makes this when she has to impress someone - it tastes amazingly yummy and yet is surprisingly easy to make! :D

Day 5: My alone self in the Kitchen

So today I was a-m-a-z-i-n-g! :D Mom actually did not enter the kitchen at all while I produced the super tasty meal below! :D You know I kind of like this whole domestic goddess avatar! Lol! Let's hope I can re-create these things once I finally settle down in US!

Day 4: A Full Indian Lunch

The menu for today was a proper indian lunch. My fav dish, bhindi; tamatar ki sabzi for my dad who doesnt like bhindi, yellow daal and garam rotis! Daal is actually something that ive never gotten around to learning how to cook. I'm pretty okay with veges but understanding what goes into a daal and how it should be cooked - well that was a hurdle! Now that i sorta have a hang of it; need to figure out how to remember the different kinds of daal! How am i supposed to know which one is udat, toor, moong.........lol!

Also I actually made sorta round rotis! now thats def an achievement! altho most of my rotis still come out looking square shaped or fish-shaped!!!

Anyways, pic of the full meal! :)

Day 3: Poha, Chole & Tomato Soup!

I actually woke up early to go for aerobics today! Today was a super fun day actually! Aerobics in the morning - we did Body Language today which is supposed to be toning & stretching exercises mostly. Muscles I did not know existed in my abdomen are paining right now!! *sigh* I really need to get back in shape...hopefully a month is enough for that!

Anyways, I guess there is some basis to the thought that exercise gives you an adrenaline rush coz I actually had a pretty active day! Came back from aerobics and cooked breakfast & lunch! Made poha for breakfast which is one my all time favourite garam nashta items! :) and made kala chole for lunch which go perfectly with bhatura but i ended up making rotis in an effort to be health conscious!

Pics below - !

After that spent my whole afternoon on the phone with Bumblebee! I love the fact that we can chit chat for hours about anything & everything ranging from serious discussions on marriage, life, etc all the way to random chit chat & observations about life. We do think alike in a lot of ways on life in general and i love that! :))

In the evening I went for a looong walk with mom; her giving me marriage gyaan! lol! Its gonna take a while before this whole mom giving me advise on how to deal with a guy in my life sinks in! Its pretty amazing how life changes so fast! Was also walking with dad after dinner (for which btw i made a very healthy tomato soup! am i not super awesome? ;)) Its always refreshing to talk to dad; esp when my mom frustrates me a little with her inability to look at life from my point of view. Dad always has an interesting take on things. And even though it may not be what I wanted him to think/ say, it always gives me something more to think about. And i absolutely love these alone chats with my dad coz he is one person that i dont have to think whether it will hurt him before i say anything (like i often have to with mom!) He just accepts, tries to rationalize it and if not understand completely, will def attempt to understand where im coming from! :))

So yea, happening friday it was! So very different from my Friday just 2 weeks back! How life changes....and so many more changes yet to come!!!

Moms & Daughters

What is with moms & daughters?

Do all moms have this super possessive hold on their daughters?

Does being the mom of a young woman render you incapable of practical thought?

I dont understand you mom. I love u but I really don't understand you.

I'm engaged to him; we've made a commitment to each other...why would anything happen abhi? Why would I mess this up? Why would he? Yes I've tossed your idea of a typical arranged marriage but didn't you already know that about me? With my dreams and head in the air, how could I have ever settled for the staid & practical arranged marriage? I always wanted the spark, the chemistry & the magic. You knew that. And I got it. So why is this so terrifying to you mom? Why?

I wish you would realize that I'm happy and that it's okay for you to let go. I can hold on to life on my own now. And having him in my life does not diminish my love for you in any way. You'll always be my mom right? No one is taking that away from you. In fact you have someone else to call you mom!!!

Trust me for once, let me go and be happy for me....because I love him & I love you and I hate feeling torn between both of u!

Day 2: Samosas & Sprout Chaat

How to be a Good Wife - the Cooking Lessons!

And the lessons to become a good wife begin! The first of many more to come in the next month, is cooking!! Since bumblebee is a big foodie; mom is after my life to learn some new stuff everyday!

Day 1 was Spinach Bruschetta & Fried Rice :)) - and it tasted quite yum! :))

Bye Bye Singapore

I'm actually leaving...
A place that's been home for more than 7 years...
A place that's seen me grow up from a naive 18 year old to this young woman I am today...
A place that showed me the the highest of highs & the lowest of lows...
Where I cried, laughed, made mistakes and learnt life...
Friends made, friendships broken, memories in every corner...
Drunken nights a-plenty & conversations about the most random things!
Clubbing till the morning, lunches in raffles, cycling at ECP, walks with various friends, shopping in orchard, drinks at so many pubs!
Thousands of images, all blurring into one another...

The place where I discovered who I was;
Where I slowly came to realize what I wanted in life...
Where I met you; and started writing the new chapter of my life!
Yes this place is special! Very special.
Not only did Singapore make me who I am today; but it brought me to you :)
And for that I will be forever grateful!

I am going to miss this place...
More than I thought I would!

Bye Bye Singapore!
Au Revoir! :))

Crossroads

Do memories disappear when you throw the things associated with them? Do the feelings associated with the things you once cherished get forgotten now that you've got the courage to throw the things away? Memories fade; leaving a blur of emotions, ups & downs and just life!

And yet again I find myself at a crossroad in life. This one I chose for myself; this crossroad I know exactly where im going; where im supposed to be. Whether that road is gonna be simpler; less strifed with thorns; nicer to me - I have no clue. I guess that's the point of life - to keep you wondering of what's yet to come. To keep you guessing what turn is life going to take next.

While I celebrate the tomorrow & the road im going to embark on; I can't help but look back. Wistful of the youth I'm leaving behind. The mistakes made; the lessons learnt; the people I loved & the people I hated. All lie in that path. Forgotten, forgiven, swept away with the sands of time...

Weeks, Days, Hours, Minutes...

...I countdown every moment
Har pal jo tumse door rehti hoon
Its as long as a millenium
I count down the days
To the moment that I'm in your arms again!

Mornings I look forward to now
Knowing it always brings a msg from you,
"Good morning sweetheart"
Is there any doubt, that a morning
that begins with your love would be anything but?

My afternoon rushes past;
in countless messages & random conversations
My evenings seem longer
As I wait for the sun to rise in
Your part of the World!

The days that should be short with
the amount of work I have
Are only lengthened by the number of
Hours I spend not talking to you

I miss you jaan...