Growing up

My bumblebee is growing up...today he says, "I think we should sell my car in the next year or so...start looking into it! Gotta plan for kids na?" Awwww, yes my love - we gotta grow up...perhaps start with replacing your beloved sports car for a sensible option!

I love you babe! *hugz*

WHY?!?

Will the blackmail ever stop? Will the undercutting and emotional drama ever cease? Am I going to victim to yet another temper tantrum just because things are not going your way? Are things never ever going to change? Will you never grow up and be an adult? Someone who can talk, reasonably & objectively? Someone who understands the word empathy...of walking a mile in another's shoe...of understanding perspectives!!! 

When the f*ck are you going to grow up?! Why can't u just talk to me instead of throwing a fit and taunting?!?

And why am I here again, a mature 27 year old, in tears because of what you said, yet again.

Why why why why why why why why???

Heart Melting happened...!!

When I went to school today late in the afternoon (a time and a day when I'm usually in my other school). My almost 3 yr old addddorable child walks up to me having just woken up from nap and rushed towards me saying, "I've missed you Mishu!!!" And followed those words with a biiiiiiiig bear hug!!!! Oh sweetheart, you just made my day, my week & my month!!! *melting in mush*

This is why I would not give up what I do for anything! 😊

Kids!

Having kids is like this unimaginable ocean of emotions, responsibilities and discipline! There are days when I see N's toothy smile or S's warm hugs that it all seems worth that tiny little moment and then there are days when the loudness of it all is terrifying and the responsibility feels insurmountable! And then there's the keepin yourself straight part. How do I think I'll be able to manage a child, when there are days I'm still struggling to manage a house & a husband & studying & school. To add a child in this equation, will I be stretching myself too thin??

Will the constant fears ever end??