The Kind Of Love That Saves You

I started to re-read this book. It's been one of my favorites ever since I got hold of it agess back. It's the story of this woman who loses her husband while she is pregnant and how she fights the grief of losing him to learn to live again for her daughter. It's a beautiful book, written amazingly well.

I started reading the prologue;

Every persons journey is touched by loss. At some point in this life, someone will be taken away from you. The place where they were....empty. What you hoped might be....gone. Grief will reach in and wrap its roots tightly around your heart. You'll believe the pain will end you.

And I couldn't go on. Maybe now that I have someone to potentially lose, I can't read on. A shiver runs through my spine just imagining what it would be like to lose so much. I can't even imagine. It's beyond my capacity to think.

I love you bumblebee. Stay safe. I wonder if my life could possibly go on without you? And then I just pray I never ever have to find out.

Day 8: Burgers & Day 9: Pakoda ki Kadhi

Randomness!

Its 1am and I'm so not sleepy! Being absolutely jobless has its downside and boredom is one of them! I've spent enough time stalking random people on fb; for once im actually updated on all the emails I have to write to various people and Bumblebee has a suuper busy workday!

I was going through some old docs on my emails & found this unfinished story. I generally suck at writing fiction; the whole balance between narration & active dialogues is something I never got the hang of completely...but i actually like this one...perhaps I should actually finish it! Now if I could only remember what direction the story was supposed to take!

The Jump - August 2008

"Matt, catch me okay? Promise me you'll catch me..." She giggled as she ran towards the tanker.

She was walking through swirls of fog, the cold mist clinging to her skin and clothes. She held out her hand and realized that she couldnt even see past in. It was almost like being in a steam room, albeit a cold one. Dark moonless nights like these were when the heroine in the book was always attacked.

"Oh snap out of it Sandy...there is nothing sinister about this place...in fact its almost magical!" She muttered under her breath.

Carefully stepping out of her shoes she started to climb the creaking ladder which would take her atop the tanker. She could hear Matt, Dave and his new girl-friend in the background. Their voices were being carried by the fog around her and though she couldnt see them, she was suddenly glad for their voices.

"Come on Sandy...I'm freezing my ass here...will you do it already!" she heard Dave complain.

Typical she thought. "Hold on will you - these steps are slipperly!"

Gingerly she climbed the steps and reached her destination. The top of the tanker. She stood up there, the swirls of fog beneath her, the twinkling city lights like a golden carpet beckoning her and she felt bliss. Pure untarnished bliss. She prepared to jump, poising herself on the very edge of the tanker.

"Matt, you're down there right? I'm jumping!!"

"Babe i'm here for you. I'm waiting." That was all the encouragement Sandy needed.

She jumped.

Me, You & Wifi*...

...the modern love story!

So apparently what is absolutely essential to complete a love story in this generation is wifi! Lol! Technology has been super frustrating since I got to jkt. Given the clear reception that Sg phone services have; I'm superbly frustrated by the crappy reception in Indo. And for some reason this reception is only crappy with US! Talk about annoyingggg!!! We circumvented the phone line & realized that skype was working far better in terms of quality of conversation! And then what happens? My wifi starts acting up! Since last weekend, my wifi has been all wonky! Randomly connecting & disconnecting as it deems fit! I swear I miss the technology of a developed country! How am I supposed to have rambling conversations now? *sigh*

*courtesy Bumblebee :))

Day 7: Kathi Roll & Chocolate Sponge Cake

Today was an interesting combination of healthy vs non-healthy food! Kathi Roll is one of Bumblebee's favourite dishes so learning that was kind of mandatory! :D

Baking - i absolutely love doing! I used to love watching mom bake as a kid. And in my opinion, the best part of baking a cake - is eating raw batter!! There is seriously nothing better than that! :D

I really want to learn a few more baking items - at some point, brownies & chocolate chip cookies as well! :)) Brownies reminds me of that scene from "Life as We Know It" where Katherine Heigl & Josh Duhamel (who btw is ultra ultra cute!) make magic brownies! Now that's one thing i would not mind trying at some point! :P

Anyways, pics from today!

Retail Therapy!!!

Today I took the day off from cooking! And went out shopping with mom & her friend! And did my favourite kind of shooping - heels! I was in girl-heaven! :D

My loot - 3 super cute & very useful heels! I loooove shopping! :))

Day 6: Pav Bhaji & Kesar Sandesh

And today I made my favourite foods! Pav Bhaji & Kesar Sandesh! Sandesh is a Bengali sweetdish which is super awesome! Its one of my mom's top-secret dishes! She generally makes this when she has to impress someone - it tastes amazingly yummy and yet is surprisingly easy to make! :D